More Native Chat Site Hatred: April 25, 2009

"YOU MUST BE LOOKING IN THE MIRROR YOU FAKE WANNABE NATIVE!! MT SQUIRREL HAS MORE NATIVE BLOOD THAN YOU DO. YOU ARE A FAKE AND YOU KNOW IT! SO GO TELL SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES BECAUSE LITTLE WANNABE I DON'T.....YOU MUST HAVE WORE YOU THIMBLE SIZE BRAIN SEARCHING THE INTERNET LOOKING FOR A PUBLIC STATEMENT.JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE WRONG FOR STEALING WHITE BISON'S WORDS AND PRETENDING THEY ARE YOURS SO YOU CAN LOOK LIKE SOME WISE NATIVE.. YOU'RE JUST A FAKE..WAHKONTAH 2009-04-18 #169291 Apachu"


Then there was more from someone who calls herself mvskokeLady(lady is hardly an accurate term, in fact Totally misleading) # 59358 who is 1/2 & 1/2 ......about being "white woman who pays for ceremony and has no tradition of her own.....needs to stop stealing from Natives" " I wonder what makes a white woman sit on here and pretend to be one of us when she has her own culture to celebrate and to rejoice in and to seek out....."




This is my response:

Re: Elders' Meditation #161182 Incante Sica Winyan - Ok, RQ...here goes.......>>>

As for my beliefs......Ceremony is for 'prayer' and ceremony is Free! I have the right to pray as I see fit..and for me a church is just an empty building (except on Sunday)...My God (Creator) is Not Dead and is Everywhere!

I am not a 'christian', I Don't Have to Be! Jesus was Jewish, a Rabbi even, and so were his followers. I do not ever believe what they do nor do I condone their part in the genocide of those in the World that were/are non-christians, that is not what the Creator I believe in stands for.

I believe that we are here to take care of all the living beings on the planet, that we are responsible for life here on Mother Earth as we know it. There is One (1) Creator...We Are ALL Children of 'God'.

There is also something called the First Amendment, it Includes Freedom of Religion, and I choose to believe the Native Teachings (which does not include Hatred that I know of).....>>>

Would you prefer that as a 'white woman' that I condemn you for being 1/2 and 1/2 (a Tribal Card is just another piece of paper to keep track of you)?

Would you prefer I taunt you and make fun of your heritage (as you have said your family has)?

Would you prefer that I call you an 'Ignorant Red Savage'?

Would you prefer I condemn you for; speaking English, wearing non-hide clothing, using electricity, cooking on a stove, driving a car, having a telephone and cell phone, using a computer?

Would you prefer I call you Barbie? Would you prefer I call you that 'P.N'. word that I loath?

Would you prefer that I tell you 'You are going to Hell for being a Heathen and for not believing in Jesus'?

Would you prefer I treat you in the manner you treat me, or speak to you in the same manner, call you names?

I think not. That's not how I was raised, that's not what I believe (but I do know all the words)!

I was raised by parents who were victims of genocide...and get this..they are of Middle Eastern Tribal People...and genocide has been in my family since the Pharaohs...400 BC (Before Christ, Before Colombo, whichever).

However, my family has chosen to forgive, make peace and go beyond, to not only make a better life for themselves and their family, but to make this Mother Earth a better place to live for Everyone.

I feel sorry for you, your rage and hatred...believe me when I say...If being 'Native' is being like you, I'd rather be nothing.

Stop making a fool of yourself, because you have the potential to be of service to the people...right now there is only one person you are hurting.... Mi Takuye Oyacin 2009-04-20 #161182 (Incante Sica Winyan 161182 on 2009-04-20)

More Petty B.S. Games @ the Library: April 22, 2009

Today is a fine example of the "professionalism" I have to deal with on a daily basis:

We have had a calendar up on the outside wall of a cubicle, which faces 5 other people's desk & for the staff for over NINE [9] Years. This calendar has all the legal holidays marked on it as well as the due dates of our timesheets, reference survey dates, and paydays...etc.

Last week the calendar went missing.....I found it stashed away in the supply closet and put it back up.

It was gone again on Friday and I put it back up....

It was gone again today....and some stupid poster on the Latina Bridal Show (that has received some disparaging remarks) was there instead.....

So I'm looking for the calendar,, and it's on the back wall behind my desk, where no one can see it!

My "acting-manager" tells me..."well he doesn't want it on the wall" To which I respond; "But it's on the Outside of the wall (where he can not see it) and we all use it and it's been there for NINE Years"

She says: "well it's his wall." So, I move the calendar to an adjacent wall, so everyone can still see it.

An hour later I come back......and I notice the Bridal Poster is gone and the wall is blank! Then he starts kissing up and asking for my help with a huge project he's working on!

Just fucking amazing and petty! This passive aggressive game playing has been going on against me since this kid got there. He's 30 yrs old, I'm 54! I have been at this job longer than he has been alive, and I have the same MLIS degree that he has + a CA Teachers' Credential.

So like what is going on here...this isn't the only game he's gone behind me on. Two weeks past he took more than 25 books out of the Mystery collection (that I oversee), ripped off the stickers and added them to the Fiction collection (that he oversees) in order to "bump up the collection". He didn't tell anyone, didn't even ask the "acting manager"...just did it.

One week before that, he tried to hold my budget for Books on CD hostage, and tried to take it over! He was called down on that, and when he came in on Monday...was being really phony sweet...and I called him on it...he apologized and said I was "right" and he had his own funds to spend....etc.

So, I have to go to work everyday and deal with immature, non-professional, passive aggressive, controlling, back-stabbing, women-hating behavior (which is why he was transferred to this library to begin with)! I'm doing all I can to keep my mouth shut....but I'll tell you, I'm praying for him to be happy & far away from me.

Verbal Abuse in a Native Website: April 19, 2009

I'm going to be honest here...I post the "Elders' Meditations" on a Native website , I Always say they are "Elders' Meditations", I do not give the link, as most of the people there know where they come from.

Today I bitched out about the postings being "plagiarism". A few days back I was Bitched out about something else I wrote and was told I'm (or my ideas/words are) "asinine", and a week or so prior I was Bitched out again. Sadly, it has become that the responses I get to the blogs I post have become a never ending Hate fest!

It seems that every time I post something in the blogs that two particular women don't like (Apachu & Wihanna), they verbally attack me...when I defend myself, they team up like a WWE Tag Team and become even more verbally abusive and just plain ugly. I was even told once by one of the two (Apachu) that I "should look in the mirror".

Obviously, I'm not allowed to post anything that these two disagree with unless I'm willing to be beat up.

What the Hell is going on that this type of continual hatred and abuse is allowed?

What is it about the hatred and name calling that is okay? And on some nights it's no better in chat...but that's a discussion for another time.

The place is making me sick...I can not stand the hatred and abuse, there is nothing healthy in that. Mostly I don't respond to the posts the two make in response because there really is no point...unless I want to bait a hook....but even that takes an enormous amount of energy.

I know both anger & hatred are an illness...condemnation of others is a mask of insecurity and low self-worth....bullying is just another form of enraged insanity.

When is it going to stop? When are people going to get well? When are people going to realize that by attacking others, they just make themselves look bad?

Anyways I'm tired of this...and I'm really hoping it stops, because that once was a wonderful site for friendship. I've met some wonderful friends here, but because of the discord most of my friends have left.

As my momma use to tell me, well actually she still does: "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all".

I guess that's all folks!

360: Hostility, Jealousy & Lies in Native Chat: November 13, 2008

Greetings:

For those of you who know me...you know these words that I write are the truth.

Since 2/14/2006 I have been a member of Tribal America . org. I have always done my best to be of support to those members in need.

As of the past year a wanting to be shining star nation (Black Hole) woman there within the site, of the Tasunka Oyate (who claims Chumash & other blood), has festered in jealousy and has promulgated deceit and lies within the site. As of late, she has been joined by a Talking Wild Horse's Ass (who closed his original buff profile with the statement he has left the site for good), and now is planning a takeover of the site. There are plans for purchasing of the site and changing it from a Not-for-Profit organization, to one of (personal) profit.

Lies have been told about specific members, which are being believed by administration. Certain members are being harassed and attacked through their associations and friends. Their friends are also being privately contacted by the despicable duo of horses and being told lies about those the duo is jealous of.

The weakness within the infrastructure causes me much grief...this is not the first time this woman has attempted to cause such damage, but it is the first time she has joined forces with one who walks so very not-in balance nor in beauty.

I am thankful for the many opportunities, friendships, and blessings the site has brought me. I am grateful and honored to have been of service to those men & women who have sought my help. Always, I pray for those members of the site, those who love & support me and those who do not. I know in my heart The Truth Will Out, for what goes around, surely does come around.

Mi Takuye Oyacin