Musings on Love & Memory

I came upon this quote in a book I was reading, and it makes sense to me, especially when I look out upon the world and see all the broken hearted lonely people craving love and affection:

"We can never let the world take our memories of love away, and if there are no memories, we must invent love all over again"; "Love is what the cup of our soul contains when we leave the world and the flesh. This we will drink forever." Magda from "The true Story of Hansel and Gretel" by Louise Murphy

I am in and out of a "relationship" and have been for the past 7 years....I know what it is when he holds me, I know when he has kissed me, I Know the Love hiding therein is Real. I Know, I Feel it.

I also know that his hiding is Not about me. It's his own sense of lack, his own pain & misery.....I was not the one that helped to create it...but I am the one who is willing to help heal it. But again it is up to him to want to heal....it is his choice, not mine.

I know that we are all responsible for our own part in each of our relationships, we are all to blame, and the blame is shared...it takes two. But to heal a relationship, both people have to step up to the plate and make the effort, when one or the other refuses to take part in the healing, then there is but no choice to take a time out.

I am in a time out....I have not walked away...I can not say that I ever will. I can say, that I continue to live my life, I do make plans and stay busy...I go out with other people (men included) and I live my life to its fullest. If another comes along that makes my heart sing, so be it...I will cross that bridge when I come upon it.

I am not lonely, I am not broken hearted...I am sad, I carry my sadness within my heart, but I do not give up nor do I stop living and I continue with my life a much as possible. Occasionally I cry, but not very often, for I am not the one who is losing out on love. There is love in my life everyday and every way. I am surrounded by love, I give love and I receive love.

I keep the good times in mind and I give thanks for having the opportunity to have known that man. I will keep the memories for I know what love of a good man is...and if it is not to be with him, then I know what I need from another.

So, that's how it is....

360: Thoughts on Love: May 6, 2007

Thoughts on LOVE:

"Love is a verb. One demonstrates one's love through one's actions. A person can only feel loved when someone else shows their loves with kisses, hugs, caresses & gifts. A lover will always promote the physical & emotional well being of the person they love."

"Love is a decision, not an emotion...we choose to love or not to love. Although our soul recognizes our beloved, in the end it is our choice."

The truth is "And in the end...the love you take is equal to the love you make" -The Beatles... So then the best way to get love is to give love. To be loved, we must be love.

"With love there is no painful reaction; Love brings only a reaction of Bliss"

"The highest understanding of love lies in its power to transform lives, restore health, and bring about a total sense of well being."

360: More Grattitude: April 29, 2007

What I am Grateful for:

• My Life
• Canka Luta Waste (Good Red Road)
  
• My Family
  
• My Friends
• Aristophanes (Bud) & Zeinab
• Graduation (MLIS)
• Pejuta Wakan (Sacred Medicines)
• My co-workers & my Wonderful Job
• Knowledge & Wisdom (to know what to with the knowledge)
• Blackberries
• Toffee Coffee Chip Ice Cream
• Frapps
• Wakiyan (Rain)
• Room 213 @ the Inn At Avila Beach
• Gourds
• My Ordination
• Grandfathers Wallace & Marcellus
• Tonka Oyate (Stone People)
• Adak, Mariah, Socrates, Handsome, The Two, Joe & Glory
• Muhu Tasen & the Bears
• Sister "Sleeps with Bear"
• All who Love & Support Me & those who don't
• That "Man" I Love & our Lessons

Mi Takuye Oyacin

360: Grattitude: April 28, 2007

Gratitude:

An attitude of gratitude is the way to live...So you think you have nothing to be Grateful for?

Try giving thanks for any or all of the following:

• Waking up in the morning & getting out of bed
• Indoor plumbing...not to mention Hot Water
• Clean drinking water
• A roof over your head
• Your cat/dog/snake/gerbil
• Food to eat
• These here Medicine Ways / Canka Luta Waste
• Those who have gone before sacrificing their lives for ours
• Ice Cream in 31+ Flavors
• Your loved ones
• Mother Nature
• Dark Chocolate ;-P
• Your Life

So when in a funk....do what I do; sit down with a piece of paper & ink pen and make a list of all the things you are Grateful for....You'll soon feel better. The reason I tell you this is I was in a bad way for 3+ years, and every night before going to sleep, I wrote down at least 3 things I was grateful for that day in my weekly planner. For sure this helped to change my life.

Mi Takuye Oyacin

Hope this satisfies your request Angel!

360: More Love Thoughts: November 22, 2006

These are from my friend Ryan: I want to share them, because I know when I receive them...my heart warms up. Feel free to pass them on to someone you love & care about.


"It's wrong to say I can't live without you, because I have already lived before I met you. Instead I'll say, life will be better if you ar just here with me."

"In the rhythm of life we sometimes find ourselves out of tune. But as long as there is someone who becomes our melody, the music plays on. Thanks for being one of my favorite songs."

"Never let anyone pull at your heart strings unless they plan on permanently tying them to their own."

"Closeness isn't always measured in distance. Friends can live many miles away, but the bond of love formed long ago keeps them close at heart."

"Men are like stars...there are millions of them, but only one can make your wishes come true."

"Don't let doubts lose the magic of love, because it's not everyday you meet someone who has the magic to make you fall in love."

"Passion...it's the atmosphere, the noise, it's the time, the taste, the smell, and the sense of being. I think it's being alive to the point where it's so joyful, that it's almost painful."

"If I could hug you everytime I though about you, I'd never let you go."

"Love is so powerful that while it's killing me, it's the only thing that is keeping me alive."

"Your beauty makes even time stop for a second and within that second I'd wish to be stuck forever."

Thank-you Ryan.....

360: Entry for August 29, 2006

This was sent to me by a friend. Read each one and pause before reading then next. You're going to feel really good by the time you finish reading.


1. Falling in Love

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts

3. A Hot shower

4. No lines at the supermarket

5. An up front parking space

6. A special glance

7. Getting mail

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain

10. Hot towels fresh from the dryer

11. A real icecream shake

12. A bubble bath

13. Giggling

14. A good conversation

15. Sitting on the beach watching the waves

16. Finding a $20 bill in a coat pocket

17. Laughing at yourself

18. A midnight phone call from the one you love that lasts for hours

19. Running through sprinklers

20. Laughing for no reason at all

21. Having someone tell you that you are beautiful/handsome

22. Friends

23. Accidentally hearing someone say somthing nice about you

24. A first kiss

25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left before you have to get up

26. Spending time with old friends, or making new ones

27. Playing with a puppy or a kitten

28. Swinging on swings

29. Sweet dreams

30. Eye contact with a cure stranger

31. Making homemeade cookies

32. Watching the sunrise/sunset

33. Watching someone open a gift (that they especially wanted) from you

34. Knowing that someone you care for misses you

35. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for your life

36. Being hugged by someone special

37. Knowing you've done the Right Thing, No Matter what anyone else thinks