Musings on Love & Memory

I came upon this quote in a book I was reading, and it makes sense to me, especially when I look out upon the world and see all the broken hearted lonely people craving love and affection:

"We can never let the world take our memories of love away, and if there are no memories, we must invent love all over again"; "Love is what the cup of our soul contains when we leave the world and the flesh. This we will drink forever." Magda from "The true Story of Hansel and Gretel" by Louise Murphy

I am in and out of a "relationship" and have been for the past 7 years....I know what it is when he holds me, I know when he has kissed me, I Know the Love hiding therein is Real. I Know, I Feel it.

I also know that his hiding is Not about me. It's his own sense of lack, his own pain & misery.....I was not the one that helped to create it...but I am the one who is willing to help heal it. But again it is up to him to want to heal....it is his choice, not mine.

I know that we are all responsible for our own part in each of our relationships, we are all to blame, and the blame is shared...it takes two. But to heal a relationship, both people have to step up to the plate and make the effort, when one or the other refuses to take part in the healing, then there is but no choice to take a time out.

I am in a time out....I have not walked away...I can not say that I ever will. I can say, that I continue to live my life, I do make plans and stay busy...I go out with other people (men included) and I live my life to its fullest. If another comes along that makes my heart sing, so be it...I will cross that bridge when I come upon it.

I am not lonely, I am not broken hearted...I am sad, I carry my sadness within my heart, but I do not give up nor do I stop living and I continue with my life a much as possible. Occasionally I cry, but not very often, for I am not the one who is losing out on love. There is love in my life everyday and every way. I am surrounded by love, I give love and I receive love.

I keep the good times in mind and I give thanks for having the opportunity to have known that man. I will keep the memories for I know what love of a good man is...and if it is not to be with him, then I know what I need from another.

So, that's how it is....

Love: Elders' Meditation: April 18, 2009

"Women know more about love than men do...Love is taking. Love is sharing. Love is learning things about each other."

--Mary Leitka, HOH

The Elders say Mother Earth shares Her special gifts of love with the Women. The Women know about bringing forth life and nurturing their offspring. Through this gift of love the Earth really makes the Woman special. Men should look upon the Woman with a Sacred Eye. She should be respected. The Woman is a role model for love. When the Woman talks, we should listen; when she shares, we should be grateful. We should all learn about each other.

Grandmother, teach me to love with the power of the Woman.


I like today's meditation. Mostly because it points out the true nature of women, and what we are capable of. What, maybe is forgotten about us...

I find, that are certain people that when I'm around that I really want to love...I really reach out to...Those that just being around causes my heart to open. I don't always know what to do with that, because there is that fear & knowing that once I leave...everything will go back to as it was before; the silence, the isolation, the feeling of being forgotten about, & the unfulfilled desire. And for sure that is anti-love and totally crazy-making.... hopefully one day very soon, we will find ourselves back in the arms of those that truly and deeply love & comfort us and for whom we feel the same.

Speaking With Our Heart: E;ders' Meditation: March 3, 2009

".the voice and the heart are not working together."

--Barney Bush, SHAWNEE

We can say any words we want with our voice but we cannot hide the true meaning and the true spirit behind the words. The true meaning is always understood. The voice is heard in the physical world, but the meaning is transmitted in the spiritual world. if our voice says one thing but the heart is saying something else, it's the something else that is heard. It is said that the truth will set you free. Reaching the truth means your voice and your words will be in alignment with the heart.

Great Spirit, let my tongue, speak the truth today.

It's amazing how true this is in everyday life...there are so many people who are "nice and smiling" when they talk to you, but you know they have ulterior motives.... It's like working with a pack of hyenas.

Then there are those, who can not even say what is in their hearts...they can't talk about matters of the heart...they hide in silence, they suffer in silence, and they allow love to pass them by.

We have to be open hearted, we have to come from love..we have to remember we are all interconnected. When we hide our love, when we hide our hearts, not only do we ourselves suffer, but so does everyone we come in contact with and the people they come in contact with...and so on...it's a chain....

This is something I am working on, because when I "see" peoples motives (and I do), I try and protect myself by closing my heart...and in the end I hurt myself.