To Be or Not To Be............ Held

Here comes a "RANT":

You know... Fear fucks people up.... And it is so stupid because, we allow it to. We spin in "WHAT IF?" and the truth being, the more we give in to the "What Ifs" the more they cripple us and take over our life.

Personally I rarely ever live w/ Fear... I lived w/ it until I was 24 and moved out of my parents home.... It caught up w/ me a few times, but I shed it.... It occasionally tests me, but instead I get pissey and fight back!

In order to win & live a comfortable life, you have to STOP the F'ing mind Spin..... Change the channel on your thoughts. Change the channel on fear..... As Louise Hay says: "It is only a thought and a thought can be changed"

I say: FUCK "WHAT IF?"

So what? What if? Huh? You think you'll die? You should be so fortunate, that Creator will end your lesson right then & there...... (Yeshua, but I do sound like a Yenta)

So you're in a relationship.... and your what-ever-the-hell-they-are-to-you decides to be honest about One of Their Several Foibles and says: "You know I was thinking about why I don't like...... Blah, blah, blah.... and You know I have this 'thing'... and it's not about you..... It's my thing... and... Blah, blah, blah"

So this whom-ever-they-are is admitting They Have The Problem, and yes, you have a part in it, but it is NOT YOU... because THEY ARE OWNING IT Their Very Own Self!

So what the hell is there to be fearful of? It ISN'T About You Personally (except for the fact you happen to be in the relationship), and unless whom-ever-they-are says to you: "I Want Out", then what is there to worry about? Huh? WTF?
 

So Right Here/Right NOW I Am Owning My Shit and saying, that for some reason (which I am working on) I do not mind being hugged in a greeting by people I know & feel good about, but I have recently discovered that I no longer am comfortable being Held On To....

I Do Not Know Why (right now I do not care why), but to put it po-litely, I feel (NOT About YOU... Read "I" as in ME) restrained. I feel (Again ABOUT ME, Not You) as if I'm expected to magically do something soothing like a blankie or a Teddy! I don't mind holding & comforting someone in need, I do not particularly need/want to be held onto back.....

 

So This Is ME.... How I Feel. It Is NOT About YOU..... If I Can Not Be Honest, about my discomfort & foibles without hurting someone's feelings or being Bitched out about it when I share..... Then I'll just STHU and not talk about it any longer...

Feel Free To NOT RESPOND.... as this is not necessarily an invitation to converse.... It is my place to vent my frustrations over inadvertently hurting someone I love by talking about my OWN SHIT & Discomfort, while trying to work it out.......

Wicosi ni wioki ♥